one month

So I have so far been back at school for 3 whole days. (and a month since Africa.) I have already written a paper, have math homework I have yet to complete and detention. bad beginning right?
I also cannot get Africa off my mind.
The other day I got up and went to the bathroom, and thought Oh My Goodness, I have almost forgotten how lucky I am to have the lovely porcelain potty to use. Then I got freaked out. I am forgetting.
I thought what more things am I going to forget? What more things am I going to let go and get lost in my head and be replaced by this mindless world I live in.
I am sick of it, I am confused, I am tired. At lunch the people I sat by the first day, whom I have found out picked up drinking (and I thought it was bad before!) all they talked about were empty things. Who slept with who, who drank what, and what was going to happen this weekend. I was so disturbed, I tried to talk to another girl, who I have known before and begin and conversation, but I might as well have been talking to a wall. no one listens. They all just talk, talk and talk, and don't look around. They don't see the bigger picture. The world outside of here is so huge, I have the priviledge to see a beautiful part of God's creation, a whole entire new place full of joy and the most beautiful people I have ever seen. They don't understand that it is out there it is not real to them as it has become real to me. It has become hard for me to be here. It has been hard for me not to isolate myself I have started to do that with my team mates, the ones I really should be talking praying with the most. It just hurts, to think of what I left, to think that it is gone, and what I have to come back to. The pettyness of it all.
I have found joy in the Lord, in friends and in reading Gods word. I remember that the Lord has put me back here for a reason, and I try to remember to have peace that God has a plan and to have faith in it. I remember coming back home and becoming so excited, SO excited, because I knew what a mission field school will be. I am trying to remember this excitement, to really be prayerfull about this.
it says in Romans 10:14
"How then can they call on the one they have not believed in? and how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? and how can they hear without someone telling them? "
The gospel is such great news, such exciting news it makes me giddy when I here it. WE ARE SET FREE from this world, there is a way to life, to real life!!
Romans 8:21
creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
in Jeremiah 20:9 it says
But if I say "I will not mention him or speak anymore in his name," his word is in my heart like a fire a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in, indeed I cannot.